OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

How do you find a peaceful thought in a room with screaming children that do not belong to you? I am in the middle of a small hell, with children that scream, touch you with nasty fingers, ask question to complete strangers, and stare... stare a lot! I promised my daughter a bit of play time in the McDonald's play land, and now all I want to do is stab my ear drums out. Meditation in the morning, and a breakdown by lunch. The battle of a at home Yogi mom is crazy me either insane or into the belly of peace. I have no clue how to separate my peace and my daughters world of complete madness. Sitting here reminds me why another child would just kill me. Yoga & Meditation has been my savor from a lot of my life, and recently I feel like I am only normal when I am involved in my yoga world. Am I selfish? That besides my very own child, I'm really not a fan of kids. That loud screams make me nervous. That if I do not close my eyes, and take a BIG DEEP BREATHE that I too may be screaming for freedom. Where is my PEACE? Who stole my normal? And why am I here?