Wow... I have never been okay with exposing my naked body. I have always been afraid of the judgement, the looks, and the feeling of being completely defenseless. But for the first time in my life I did it... I laid on my bed, locked the door, and didn't move. Laying there on the sheets looking like a star fish trying to connect with myself entirely. It took me 15 minutes to take my hands off my own eyes. I thought if I couldn't see myself, I couldn't judge. But no, I promised myself I would embrace the experience. So after fighting with myself, I really tried to focus of the freedom instead of the lack of.
After relaxing and realizing this is me, I laid there for an hour & 43 minutes. I started actually meditating, and forgot that I was naked, and realized that I am a beautiful person with the ability to look beyond the outside. I am new. My 4th of July celebration was FREEDOM from my fears. FREEDOM from my self judgement. FREEDOM! And after doing this silly experiment I have become a better person with less to cover me.
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